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I write freely whatever I am thinking about on here. As such, it may be triggering for those with issues similar to my own. So please read with caution.

Sunday, August 8, 2010

Being thankful for today

Last night I can the closest I've ever come to a panic attack.  I went to bed after a mostly unpleasant day of intrusive memories.  My chest got tight.  I just was scared and say and yet couldn't pin it on anything.  I tried for an hour to go to sleep but then evantually got up and took an Ambien.  It still took about 20 minutes but I finally got to sleep then.

Due to the Ambien I slept late and didn't wake up in time to make it to church. But I watched the live feed of what was left of the service.  I was barely awake and don't really remember what the sermon was.

I am trying to remember that my emotions are a choice.  And today is better than yesterday, so that is something to be thankful for.


  1. Feeling just are, they are not good or bad. Your feelings matter. They matter to God. He gave us our feelings, He made us the way we are and we are worth everything to Him. You are worth it.
    God bless you.

  2. Thanks Vicki. It's been better the last few days. The weekend was just bad.