Being thankful for today

Last night I can the closest I've ever come to a panic attack.  I went to bed after a mostly unpleasant day of intrusive memories.  My chest got tight.  I just was scared and say and yet couldn't pin it on anything.  I tried for an hour to go to sleep but then evantually got up and took an Ambien.  It still took about 20 minutes but I finally got to sleep then.

Due to the Ambien I slept late and didn't wake up in time to make it to church. But I watched the live feed of what was left of the service.  I was barely awake and don't really remember what the sermon was.

I am trying to remember that my emotions are a choice.  And today is better than yesterday, so that is something to be thankful for.